I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.
Maggie May
"Reading gives us someplace to go when we have to stay where we are.”
And she kissed me. It was the kind of kiss I could never tell my friends about out loud. It was the kind of kiss that made me know that I was never so happy in my whole life.
I just hope I remember to tell my kids that they are as happy as I look in my old photographs. And I hope that they believe me.
To tell you the truth. I love Sam. It’s not a movie kind of love either. I just look at her sometimes, and I think she is the prettiest and nicest person in the whole world.
Personally, I like to think my brother is having a college experience like they do in the movies. I don’t mean the big fraternity party kind of movie. More like the movie where the guy meets a smart girl who wears a lot of sweaters and drinks cocoa and kiss in the rain. I think something like that would be very good for him, especially if the girl were unconventionally beautiful. Those are the best kind of girls. I personally find “super models” strange. I don’t know why that is.
It’s just that sometimes people use thought to not participate in life.
And I wonder if anyone is really happy. I hope they are, I really hope they are.
I have finished To Kill a Mockingbird. It is now my favorite book of all time, but then again, I always think that until I read another book.
So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be.
Mockingjay, by Suzanne Collins, was the third and final book in The Hunger Games Trilogy. I’d say it was a pretty good ending to the series. I’m not a big fan of giving spoilers, but I was constantly on the edge of my seat. I was really upset when one character died, and excited when Katniss went on stage for her own personal death. I will say the one thing I’m really not a fan of was the ending, which in my eyes is probably one of the most important parts to making or breaking a trilogy. She rushed it a bit, and you never find out what happens with certain characters like Gale. It was kind of like, action! action! action! the end, with not buffer information.
What do you think about it?
But there are much worse games to play.
We’re fickle, stupid beings with poor memories and a great gift for self-destruction.
The truth is, it benefits no one to live in a world where these things happen.
I no longer feel any allegiance to these monsters I called human beings, despise being one myself. I think that Peeta was onto something about us destroying one another and letting some decent species take over. Because something is significantly wrong with a creature that sacrifices its children’s lives to settle its differences.
Closing my eyes doesn’t help. Fire burns brighter in the darkness.
